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Circular Thought
by ~Ant-JanosA circular thought
One that twists and turns in the wind. When you look away, it grows exponentially. When you forget about it, the thought multiplies and gains strength. Though when you stare into its eyes, the metaphorical eyes, the thought changes shape. It takes on a less imposing form, and crawls away, scared. Your mind created the thought, and your mind can destroy it as well.
A single doubt arises, and it will eat away at the thought and at your own convictions until they are gone. If you look away, the doubt will lessen and the thought shall survive. But once you pay attention, the doubt will gain strength and digest the whole thought in a single gulp.
Thus how do we keep a thought sane and existent? An emotion takes over, it supports the thought, it nourishes it. So that when you choose to turn and examine the thought, the thought will smile and grow in strength. And in turn, you too can smile. While you look away, the thought will prosper, less vigorously, but it will prosper nonetheless.
Once a doubt is present, and you acknowledge the thought and doubt, the emotion will shield the thought, letting the doubts eat away and digest the emotion. The thought can only helplessly watch your body being devoured by the monster called doubt. And once the thought, once the emotion is gone, the doubt will die too. But until then, the process will continue.
How do I get rid of the doubt? What can reassure me enough to keep my emotions overflowing, love binding me to the thought? How can I defeat the little devil of doubt that destroys me??
What convictions do I require?
Thus the circle is complete, a subject stated, a thought resurrected, a doubt explained, an emotion revealed, but no point emphasized. Questions are asked with no answers; therefore, you and I may ponder and wonder tonight at the answer and meaning of this all.
I only own one thought doubtless without fear, and that is that I love you. And that love, being the thought, and the shielding emotion, nay, even the center and energy of my being, shall stand against all doubt, all fears, all men and women who dare massacre my mind.
